Because Diets Don't Work

I've spent years dieting. My weight has gone down and up and up and down. Right now, I'm doing the best I can to be the healthiest I can.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Just a few more days

I must admit, this place seems fairly ineffective for meeting new people. I must be doing something wrong. I probably won't update here anymore because it seems like a waste of my time and actually makes me feel rather lonely.

I have completed two of my finals and have two more left. One on Monday and one on Tuesday. After that, I am packing up and going home.

That is all ...

Oh. And I'm down to 176.8. Go me!

Friday, April 30, 2010

Last Full Week of Classes

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I have one more day of classes --- Monday. After that, finals week begins. My finals don't start until Friday and I'm done that following Tuesday. I'm not stressed in the least. I'm rather excited. I cannot wait to get out of here for the summer! It won't be long before I'm married, moving into Mitch's apartment, then graduating college, then going to grad school, then starting a family ... hehehe!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

End of the Semester Chaos

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I have no idea what I am doing. My weight has remained fairly steady because I have not been paying that close of attention to my eating with all the drama in my life. Fighting with friends. Massive homework assignments. Life drama in general. Finals start next week and I am slightly terrified. I don't know why, because I am very intelligent and know I will do well. I just have a tendency to freak out at the end of the semester.

I talk a lot about intuitive eating, but my therapist says it isn't for everyone. I am one of those someones. I wish that I could hurry up and get approved for Medicaid so I can finally go see a nutritionist and get a meal plan. The sooner, the better, so I can stop dieting and lose weight in a more balanced manner. I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind again.

I cannot wait for this semester to be over. I just want to go home and relax.

Monday, April 26, 2010

I Love Parties

I have gained 3 pounds since Thursday (so in 4 days), but I am not upset by it (especially since at some point during the weekend I was up to 183). I am sure by tomorrow, it will be on its way back down.

I had the time of my life with the parties. There was a lot of laughter, tears, and a couple embarrassing gifts. My grandmother bought me a nightie. I was so worried that it wouldn't fit. I tried it on when I got home and it fit fine. You can see my fat because it is shear, so I know I definitely have a long way to go.

There are 40 days until my wedding. I wonder how much weight I can lose before then. I am trying to be optimistic, but 5.5 weeks doesn't sound too promising a length of time. I hope to get down to at least 170, but we will see.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010


I am leaving in the morning at around 11, to go home for the weekend. I am so excited because I do not get to go home oftent throughout the semester, so when I finally do --- yee haw!

I am spending most of the day Thursday with Rachael. She knows about my struggles with food and body image, so she's really understanding. She is battling to lose weight too (and do amazing I might add) so it makes things easier for both of us.

I am not sure what I am doing Friday during the day, but I know that I am having my bachelorette party that night. We are going to Mongolian BBQ and amazing Rachael found a healthy one in Independence. I am not sure if she did that on purpose or by accident, but I am TOTALLY excited! I already looked up the nutrition information and printed off the pamphlet. I have so many different things planend out in my head. All if it at under 500 calories (Even if I get two plates).

The way Mongolian BBQ works: You get up and grab a bowl. Then there is this buffet-style set up with meat, veggies, noodles, and sauces. You add what you want of each of these items (and there is a huge variety so even the pickiest eater is good to go). When you are done, you walk up to this huge circular grill and they cook your food right in front of you. I love that part of it. It is so much fun to watch the cooks, especially if they act silly. The process looks a lot like this:

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Have I mentioned how excited I am??? Hehehe. I will be staying the night with MOH (Maid of Honor) Rachael and my bridesmaid Faith. We might go to a movie or do some shopping. IDK yet.

Then Saturday I have my wedding shower at the church. That should be a lot of fun! Then Sunday is church and I'm back to campus that afternoon.

The weekend will be really busy, but lots and lots of fun.

Today's Intake
Honey nut cheerios with skim milk
Large apple

Turkey wrap (FlatOut wrap, 3 oz turkey, lots of lettuce, mustard)
Sour cream & onion Baked Lays potato chips
3 Hershey's caramel kisses

Breakfast burrito (Wrap, turkey, egg beaters, cheese dip, hot sauce)
4 Hershey's caramel kisses